Anthony Loffredo, better known as the “Black Alien,” has made global headlines for his dramatic body transformation—covering himself in tattoos, removing parts of his face, and reshaping his body to resemble an alien. But in a candid moment, he’s revealed the real-world cost of his extreme appearance: he can’t find a job.

Speaking on the Club 113 podcast, Loffredo admitted, “It’s a fight every day. People don’t understand. They judge. I can’t find a job—there’s a lot of negativity.” Despite feeling better in his modified body, he says there’s also a “dark side” to the lifestyle.

Once a security guard, Loffredo left it all behind at 24 to chase a lifelong fascination with body transformation. Over time, however, he says the meaning behind his project faded. “I no longer want to touch my body,” he told fans. “I’m done with modifications—for now.”

Though he may look unrecognizable from his past self, Loffredo insists he’s still the same inside. “I’m a normal guy,” he said. “I work, I have a family, a girlfriend. That’s what makes me normal.”